I mistook “controlling” for “strong protector” and “provider.” In a very short time I had no relationship with my friends, and my giving and helping nature was restricted and put down. “How can you help someone else when you can’t even help yourself?” I gave everything I had to be the perfect person wearing every hat, but there was always a cut down, a hit of words below the belt. I started beating myself up saying that I never do anything right. I was on a roller coaster and didn’t really feel joy in a pleasant situation, because I knew it was only for a moment. I knew I was going in circles. I had to get on a straight path.
I found people just like me, and they helped me realize who I am. How I can stand on my own two feet and put my head up. There are choices and to see clearly I had to leave. Looking forward to bright future, imagining being successful in everything I do.
I had very little possessions and what I thought was ours I found out different when the keys were taken away. But this gave me a charge of energy to pursue what is best for me and mine.
I forgive myself first. I can’t blame anyone for how things happen in my life. I understand I can make changes for my good and others can too.
I give people chances and believe their word. I learned red flags and to protect myself from being hurt. I learned from this experience and want to help others. You are here for a purpose and all things work together for good.