Survivor Stories

December 10th

One night ruined the rest of my life
I trusted him
He was a friend I felt safe around
It only took one night to take away the trust, safety, friendship
He knew what he was doing
He waited until I was weak, couldn’t fight back
There was nothing I could do
I couldn’t talk, couldn’t move, couldn’t think, couldn’t stay awake
He deliberately violated my boundaries, my rights as a human being
He took advantage of my body, my feelings, my life, my soul
He had no right to hurt me on that one night

One night ruined the rest of my life
I hate him
He was never my friend
I took only one night to make me feel dirty, whorish, ashamed, guilty, degraded, scared,
depressed, helpless, confused, angry, disappointed, hurt, betrayed, uncomfortable,
disgusted, untrusting, taken advantage of,; emotionally destroyed
He knows how he made me feel
He did it on purpose, planned it
There is nothing I can do
I can’t talk, can’t move, can’t stay asleep
He deliberately violated my boundaries, my rights as a human being
He took advantage of my body, my feelings, my life, my soul
He had no right to hurt me on that one night

One night ruined the rest of my life
These are the feelings I live with every day
What I wake up with, what I fall asleep with
They haunt me
The thought of him and what he did haunts me, scares me
My soul is disturbed, my heart is frozen, my body is ruined
What’s done is done
Maybe there is something I can do
I can pray, pretend it never happened, ignore it, deny it, forget it
Impossible
There is nothing anyone can do to make what he did on that night okay,
acceptable, over with
He deliberately violated my boundaries, my rights as a human being
He took advantage of my body, my feelings, my life, my soul
He had no right to hurt me on that one night

One night ruined the rest of my life